One day when I'm like 30, I'm gonna log onto my tumblr, for the first time in who knows how long it'll be by then, and read all of my posts. Every single one. And I'm probably gonna either laugh at how ridiculous I was, or cry because I'll never be this young and naive again.
And I've come to realize that when it really comes down to it; the only person you're going to be able to trust is yourself. In the end, the only person you'll be able to depend on is yourself. There's a lot of fake people in the world, and your the only one you can ever be sure of. People lie, but there's nothing you can do about it. And you'll lie to yourself every now and then too, but deep down; your always going to know the truth. That's why I don't tell people things. That's why I rely on myself to make myself feel better. Even if it means hurting myself in another way. What works, works. The end.
Throughout the year of 2010, I've fallen for the most unexpected people. I've lied to the people that cared the most. I've lost friends who I thought I never would. I've trusted the wrong people. I've made mistakes only to make me stronger. I've learned so many things this year.
You know what hurts most? The seconds in the morning where you've just woken up, and for those mere precious seconds, you've forgotten the reasons you're unhappy; the reasons you're so broken. And then it hits you again, like a stab to the heart, and you remember all the reasons you didn't want to wake up. Yeah, that hurts.
I reblog things I can never have, I reblog places I can never go to, I reblog things I could never say, I reblog things that make me laugh, I reblog things that have been bothering me, I reblog meaningful lyrics, I reblog things that I could never put into words.